Jodie also described how she changed her voice, her hair, became captain and president of different clubs and how she used her intelligence to build a wall around her. She wrote, “[I] spent years in the practice of bending and shaping myself into the most acceptable form of Jodie for the people around me until there was nothing of me left but hate for a person I didn’t recognize.”
US Weekly
She said that she was scared that she became someone that it was impossible to come back from…and it was exhausting.